I just wanna start off saying I’m a firm believer in signs, although many people say things are coincidental I believe there’s always a reason behind everything. I also believe when loved ones pass on from earth they find ways to communicate with us through signs, because they are always looking down from above and making sure we’re safe and sound.
At around 3am our fire alarm went off twice, ten minutes apart but it rang twice you guys. We searched the house but found no fire anywhere. The only thing I could pin point it to was I fell asleep with a heat pad on, mom must have been watching me from the heavens and woke us before anything could have happened (because there was no smoke or fire or anything from the heat pad being on for the few hours I was asleep).
With everything that’s going on in the world, it’s been difficult to have a positive mind set. Anytime you turn on the news or get onto social media there are endless news articles about sickness and death, I understand the reasons for the coverage of these stories but I hate that this is what our lives have come to. Today I’m choosing to look at the positives of this situation, positive outcomes of covid19 for me:
It’s given me a new appreciation for things I’ve taken for granted; things like gathering with friends and family, shopping, eating at a restaurant, and having full time employment
I’ve learned to slow down and enjoy the simple things in life; like sleeping in, reading, home cooked meals, and spending more time at home
It’s helped me reevaluate my spending; not only with finances but how I spend my time too
The opportunity to try new things and find new hobbies (especially things I’ve always said I’ve never had time to do)
Being able to learn about myself more and giving myself time to grow without outside stressors
Monday mornings have always been my least favorite. It’s the hardest day of the week to get out of bed, the longest day of the week, the day that I need an endless supply of coffee. So if you’re like me you need some Monday motivation.
While I’m here and I have the chance I figured it’d be nice to take a moment and write out a few things that I’m thankful for today:
I’m sure you’ve all heard the saying “ If You Want Something, You Have to Put It Out Into The Universe.” I’m a firm believer in affirmations and stating truths to clear a path for your destiny. I think if you want something bad enough and you set your mind to it, it can be achieved. With that being said I always set myself a few New Years resolutions dependent upon lessons I’ve learned the year before; so here goes nothing, universe I hope you’re listening. This is in no particular order what so ever, my manifestations for 2020 are as follows:
Follow through with my career goals and figure out a plan of attack for nursing school
Learn to stick to a budget, try to at least double how much money I currently have in my bank account
Foster a deeper connection with my loved ones
Become more independent as an adult, take on more responsibilities
Find things that truly make me happy
Honor mom’s memory, allow myself time to properly grief
There’s so much to reflect on this year. I’ve survived so much more than I thought I’d ever be able to handle, and I’ve managed to learn so much in the process. Truly it’s been hard to trust god and his plan for my future but I’m glad he’s been able to navigate me through the rough waters. Looking forward to so much in 2020.
oops I did it again, I’ve totally been in some weird time warp these past couple of days and haven’t managed to be able to get anything done really. I actually saw a facebook post the other day that summed up the phenomenon perfectly, “It’s the period between Christmas and New Year. No one knows what day it is. Time doesn’t really exist. Can we start drinking at 10am? Why not. Existence is a confusion.” Seriously though, I’ve barely managed to make it to work on time then I get home eat dinner and go right to bed because I’m exhausted. To make things worse during this time warp I’ve had a killer migraine that has somehow managed to come and go for 2-3 days. I was going to try and make up for the lost time and come up with a longer list today but y’all I’m just really struggling.
Some times I am grateful for today:
Coffee scented candles
Sweet tea, because Hello Texan here
smart phones because everything is always at the touch of my finger tips
big purses that can hold a lot of snacks haha
having the ability to go anywhere i want anytime i want
living in the day and age where I can literally call and talk to my loved ones whenever I want
days where I am in a cleaning mood
portable phone chargers because my phone is always dying
headphones so i can listen to music as loud as i want
I’m not sure what it was, maybe post food coma from yesterday or maybe it’s just been one long week prepping for the holiday; but boy am I exhausted. Today came and went in a blink of an eye and I’m not even sure how I survived. Seriously the amount of times I yawned was countless, but things were so busy at work I didn’t even get a chance to really drink my coffee before it cooled off and I ended up having to throw it away. And to be honest my bed has been calling my name since I left it at 7 o’clock this morning, so I’m gonna try and wrap this post up and get to snoozing.
Some things I was grateful for today:
The snooze button on alarm clocks
The smell of coffee in the morning
Taking warm showers to wake myself up
Kindle, getting to read a book whenever wherever
Whoever invented smoothies, such a yummy go food/drink
Merry Christmas Friends! Really hope everyone got to spend some time with their loved ones, and enjoy the holidays.
I can’t believe the holiday season is officially over and we are now moving toward the countdown into 2020. So many things to reflect on for this year, so many different lessons I’ve learned. I know one things for sure though, I would not have been able to make it this far without my family.
It really doesn’t feel like tomorrow is going to be Christmas. For one, Texas decided our high is going to be 72 degrees so it definitely does not feel like winter. Second, my nephews and nieces are all at the age where they no longer believe in Santa so I’m not needing to bake cookies or hide presents downstairs. Missing the times when they still believed in the magic of Christmas. Also just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas Eve and hope you’ve all made it into Santa’s good list!
Proud of myself for finally finishing Christmas shopping. Also proud of myself for staying productive and getting everything wrapped and under the tree tonight too. Even had some extra time to spend with my second family, today was pretty good. Now it’s time to sit back relax and try to figure out the type of cookies to bake, any suggestions?
Five things I am thankful for today are:
my cousin who made me some delicious vegan chili for dinner
my boyfriend and his family for taking me in as their own